Steven Berry had a grayish, scruffy beard with long, dark hair pulled back in a ponytail. His right arm was covered with tattoos. He wore a baseball cap, smoked cigarettes and drank coffee. And lots of it. Berry was an active member of Portland’s recovery community who had a passion for helping others struggling with alcoholism and addiction. As Berry worked to maintain his own sobriety and help other alcoholics, he was suffering quietly from his own battle with depression. Berry died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound at his camp on Bonny Eagle Pond in Buxton.