On the morning of my first visit to the outpatient Ohio Hospital for Psychiatry, I woke up wired, my nerves overstimulated from the instant my eyes opened. The thought of seeking professional help was overwhelming. Pursuing treatment for a mental disorder — whether melancholia or mania — invokes fear of being judged, of being misunderstood.adcelannotate = {"mobilepaywallcategory" : "MOBILE_PREM-LIFE_ENTERTAINMENT","nativepaywallcategory" : "NATIVE_PREM-LIFE_ENTERTAINMENT"};